I've been gone from the world-o'-blog for a while, you may have noticed. :) I don't have a great excuse. We didn't move, or have a baby, or lose a close family member (thank goodness to all of that). My excuse is that I fell off the wagon. Hard. And, up until now, I have been ashamed to admit it. Even to myself. But I finally stepped onto the scale this morning and forced myself to admit the truth. I have gained back 30 pounds since January. "Hi, my name is Fleur. Hi, Fleur. And I am once again overweight."
Now, I know that I am the only person in the world to have ever had this problem. wink wink So, I decided to tell you about it so that if, by some strange coincidence, you might have had, or ever will have this problem, maybe you won't feel quite so alone. That's what this blog is all about, after all. Informing the world that not everyone's life is as perfect and easy as you may think. I have decided to "man up" and not only admit my failure, but also do something about it. Next week I am going back to Weight Watchers. I know that the program didn't actually solve my underlying eating problems, but until I get my weight manageable, I am too overwhelmed to try to get to the root of my over-eating. I will go back to my old meeting, hat in hand, and start over. sigh
This time I want to do it better. I want to learn to enjoy fruits and veggies as a normal part of life. I want to snack on healthy things, instead of WW 1 point snack bars that are made from who-knows-what. I bought a gym membership last week. I want to use it to build muscle and actually get in shape.
This is me and my mom at my brother's wedding two weeks ago. My mom has done fabulous at maintaining her weight loss. I'm so proud of her! Doesn't she look great!? I need to get my inspiration from her. In my new spirit of transparency and honesty and accountability, here are my current stats:
30 years old
185 pounds (up from my goal weight of 155)
5' 6"
36% body fat (as measured by my fitness evaluation at the gym)
Bleah. I can do better than that. Here's to do-overs.
Fleur,
ReplyDeleteThis blog is so inspiring.. I too, have gone up and down on the scale since having kids.. and I so feel your pain. Just try to be positive.. and think.. you still are down from where you first started... that is something to be proud of. AND... you didn't gain all the weight back.. you caught yourself in time. Anyway.. you can do it girlfriend! I need to do it TOO!
You look great in that pic by the way!!!
I will be at the Ultimate workout class tomorrow morning @ 9:00am @ the 34th st location. I'd love to see you there. Be prepared to really really hurt for several days after. Sandi will push you. It's great!
ReplyDeleteI feel you! After I had Anna and gestational diabetes again, I decided I needed to do something about it. I lost the baby weight plus 30 lbs and was so proud of myself! Then came thanksgiving. :P I gained 14 lbs back, 2 lbs a month for 7 months because I was "done" with my weight loss journey. I started over, and have lost 5 lbs of that since April. I found an app for my ipod that tracks my weight for me. I weigh myself first thing every morning and then enter my weight. It is so nice that my weight is slowly going down again! I love your blog! Thank heaven for do-overs :)
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