Learning to eat only when you're hungry is HARD. I knew this before. I'm sure many of you know this. But, I feel the need to say it again: eating only when you're hungry is HARD. Okay, I'm better now.
That being said, I actually think I did fairly well this week. Remember, I'm developing a habit that I plan to keep the rest of my life. And, I'm breaking habits that I have had for the past 30 years. So I don't expect to have it down anytime soon. I don't ever expect to be perfect with this. I'm simply shooting for "more often than not".
I managed to put down my fork and be done before the food was gone many times. I have discovered I have a bad habit of piling waaay too much onto my plate, then I feel the need to finish everything in front of me. Have to work on that one. I'm not sure if I want to start using smaller plates, or teaching myself to get smaller portions. I think I'll go with the smaller portions. Using smaller plates would just be a temporary measure, it wouldn't teach me anything about true portion size. And how many restaurants/grandma's houses are going to serve you your dinner on a saucer? Exactly.
I did my weekly weigh-in yesterday and I was down by about half a pound. I'm not focusing on the numbers, but it does help to know that I am on the right track. I also went running a couple of times this week. (Before the bottom dropped out of our weather; anybody ever gone running in -15 degree wind chills? Me neither.) It felt soo good to run again. I have lost my pedometer somewhere, so I couldn't use the stopwatch on it to keep track of my time. And, you know what? I enjoyed my runs so much better when I wasn't able to care how fast I was going! I didn't worry about distance. I didn't worry about time. I don't really care if I ever get faster or able to go longer, I just enjoy the run! How liberating. So that is my message to you this week: enjoy the journey. Don't worry about how far you will go, or how long it will take you to get there. Learn to love yourself and learn to love the journey!